sleeping

when you are asleep

you throw your arms

high above your head

and your hair

always looks like a

a dirty halo

but

for sure

you are a sinner

even in your dreams
how the hell
your dreams could be good?
that's what
dark shadows
under your eyes
tell me every day

to wake you up

I spill water

on your forehead

if I stay

if I stay

will you not talk to me

for the first ten minutes

after we wake up

?

and will you

stay calm

when my face goes absent

and everything about me

gets so distant

?

if I stay

can we smoke at least

one cigarette

before we talk

about last night

?

if I stay

?...

(I close the door

quietly

- not to wake you up)

*** (you wake me up)

you wake me up

in the middle of the night

and walk to the roof

we’ve never managed

to see the sunrise

but tonight

we are watching stars

and Mars

I let myself

get lost in time

and it’s easy to imagine

that this is our

last night on Earth

...

we go back to bed

just before the dawn

this way it’s easier

to pretend

that day

has never arrived

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you look through your fingers

into the sun

and frown

when shadows move

on your face

and add new details to it

for a brief moment

it seems that you are smiling

February reflects its paleness

on your cheeks

and cold air

makes your breath shallow

with cold fingers

you touch my hand

and I try very hard

not to shiver

there are no more mirrors

at home

I read you ‘The Snow Queen’

before we fall asleep