*** (I just always thought)

I just always thought

that there is more to life

than cooking you dinners

and giving blow-jobs

I thought that the excitement

should burn the back of our eyelids

from the first moment we wake up

I thought that a thought of you

should give me shivers

and fever on my forehead

I thought that the sight of you

- of your face of your arms

of your back and all the rest –

should keep me awake

for the whole night

***

once we get to the point

where there are only

dinners

awkward moments in bed

and invitations

to the weddings

where I am no longer +1

but I have a name

and when we not only

have lost so much time together

but as well we have already

lost each other

(so long ago)

you will send me

a postcard

(address unknown)

to say ‘thank you’