rubatosis

rubatosis (df): the unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat

street lamps flicker

and I tell myself

that this is a broadcast

especially for me

(even if I can't decode it)

so there is that

and there is noise

I think we must be

standing exactly where

the City has its heart

if I am right

and that's the heart

I am the needle

moving through

its arteries

and about to kill

I focus on

my own heartbeat

and synchronise it

with this other

bigger heart

- so we can die

together

I want to tell you

that this is the time

to say all of the

goodbyes

but the only sound

that I can make

is this loud rumble

coming from

my heart

- already

counting down

...