tippex

I sometimes paint my fingernails

it's always black and white

and my nails never resemble

anything else than the fingernails

of someone who bites their fingers

to the bone

I do it even though

my sister always laughs

that it looks like nails coloured

with a sharpie and tippex

(they are not - 

- but they do look like this)

I do it even though

I can't really do it properly

I do it to prove myself

I am in charge

I do it to show the world

I don't care

one time

when I've felt extremely healthy

and brave

I've painted them red

Máthēma Of Depression (WiP)

NUMBER THEORY

prime numbers

can be divided

only by themselves

and one

it always seemed

like a good

starting point

2, 3, 5, 7, 11, 13… 

I always liked

the idea of 2

being the only

prime that was even

but there was

never anything even

about me

and always

plenty of odd

{ 2k+1:k ∈ Z }

LOGIC

they used to

teach us

that there are 

only two values:

and that things can be

either true

or false

(and there is nothing

in between)

x = 1 ⊕ x = 0

it never felt

like a good time

to start telling

the truth

so I just started

to stay silent

more and more

x = 0

MATHEMATICAL ANALYSIS

my mind got broken

so many times

pieces went

missing

and I knew

it will never be

whole again

x = [0,1)

SET THEORY

sometimes 

I’ve been

too little:

too little of

a golden middle

or too little

to be

someone else’s

future

(soon I’ve became

too little

to be a

future

for myself)

x ∈ Ø

LOGIC 2

alternatively

I could’ve been

too much:

it was like a

swear word

- by that time

I’ve already been

too much sad

for far too much time

so surely

too much can’t be

anything good

thus - surely -

I can’t be

any good

QED

liquid brain

today there was a lot of sun

between the leaves

on the pavements

in my eyes

it was almost easy

to forget about

everything that is

so dark

and hides

between my ears

I’ve tried to imagine

all of that

leaving my head

together with

yet another nosebleed

it would probably also

have to take

my brain

but that’d be

alright 

I suppose